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"Pausing creates a space where one can see clearly" - Dov Seidman

 

I’m committed to being “real” in this blog, so I’m just going to tell you that this last week was just one of "those" weeks.  I’ve felt off-center all week—like little things just really annoying me way more than they should.  One example: one day this week I had this mini-spiral about the fact that there are bugs everywhere in my house (this is just a fact of life here) and I was so over having to brush them off everything (including myself) and I couldn’t take any more bites.  There have been a bunch of things like that this week.  Even employing all of my usual practices—exercise, meditation, mindfulness—wasn’t getting me back to center.  On Friday, I found out that my identity has been stolen.  Sadly, this is not the 1st time, but suffice it to say that dealing with all of that from overseas is even more of a nightmare than when you have to deal with it at home.  Later on Friday, I learned that Tokitae had died—and this one broke me a bit.  Many of you know of my strong opposition to animals kept in captivity for human entertainment and I, like so many others, truly hoped she would be returned to her home in the waters of the PNW. 

So today I find myself still feeling off-center and too unfocused to write a typical blog.  I’m going to take the rest of today to pause and get myself back to center. 

Before anyone worries, I am going to be fine!  Truly.  This isn’t the 1st time I’ve felt this way and it won’t be the last time.  I know myself well enough to know what I need to do to get back to center.   💗

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  1. MarieAugust 20, 2023 at 3:50 PM

    Know you will be fine. One of life's tests. People can really suck the life out of something good you are trying to do. Good thoughts sending your way. Love ya

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  2. EstelleAugust 20, 2023 at 4:20 PM

    Yes bugs, Makes you appreciate how our grandparents and those who came before them lived in houses that weren't sealed well. Bugs everywhere. And you appreciate the mosquito netting even more.

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  3. AnonymousAugust 23, 2023 at 7:31 AM

    Vicariously itching your bites! Your blog entries are the new Series episodes I’m eager to see each week. Thank you, Thank you; you have lifted me up from the smoke-filled flathead. 🐓

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