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"like butter scraped over too much bread" -JRR Tolkien

 Full quote: Why, I feel all thin, sort of stretched, if you know what I mean: like butter that has been scraped over too much bread. That can't be right. I need a change, or something.

I can't believe its taken over a year for me to pull out a LOTR reference! 😉  But Bilbo's words ring so true for me these days.  A few weeks ago I posted that I had reached the one year mark--and it has been a hell of a year!  The highs were really high and the lows were low, low, low.  As the school year finally came to a close on Friday, I am feeling like I can really step back and take a breath.  A nice, deep, long breath.   I have hope and excitement around the projects at school next year; but right now I need a break and some quiet, reflective space.  As part of that break, I'm going to put a pause in the blog until school starts again at the beginning of September.  So until then, I leave you with a picture I snapped of myself on my balcony as I was getting ready to leave home and move to the consolidation point as Beryl approached.  It could have been the last time I was at my house, so I felt like I should mark it with a photo, LOL.  💓💓💓

You would never guess that a hurricane was on its way! 


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  1. Thank God, you were okay !🙏🏼 ❤️

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